Addiction, moderation, and total refrainment

I think people are diverse in the ability to resist getting addicted to something. Some people are naturally know how to balance things and how to moderately enjoy the pleasure of life. Some, on the opposite, are easily getting tempted and addicted to worldly desires, whether it is something as simple as food and drink or television show, or something far more serious like drugs.

Moderation is always the best way to live one's life. But for the people in the second group, myself included, the effort to go moderately with things that brings a lot of pleasure can fail miserably. I notice that if I plan to watch a favorite TV show moderately, I would end up spending the whole two hours glued to the front of TV and waste even more time searching for more of it in Youtube. The effort to buy less bottles of Oishi green tea didn't seem to work either. The best way for me is to totally refrain from things that I easily get addicted to, although it means that I have to watch very little television or not at all, or no bottled green tea for the whole month. You see, this method doesn't work with everyone. My best friend and my mother play online games everday but they don't go crazy on it or getting obssessed with it the way I do with TV and bottled green tea. They can easily take moderation with their hobbies.

Nevertheless, I still believe that moderation is still the best, if one is able to hang on to it. And I still hope that one day, when I'm off my obssessive mood and able to gain more control of myself, I will try to step closer to the line of moderation. But for now, I will have to choose between indulging myself with my favorite soap-opera which results in the waste of my time and the ruin of my planned schedules, or totally refrain from it for a while to gain back the balance that I have lost, and move my life into the right direction.

I am working on this kind of silly addiction one by one. If it works then I will try it with other things as well. 

So, if sometimes I act like an ascetic....it's just that I'm very weak, not that I'm pious or religious or anything like that.