Rest in Peace, my beloved King

Since I was a child, I have heard my parents and everyone around me talk about the great King, our beloved "Nai Luang." As I grew up, I read and watched so many stories about him, about how he had labored all through his life for the well-being of his people, about the great talents and intelligence he had and how he always used them for the good of the people. I also heard about how humble he lived. How he never throw away things after they are broken. He always got them repaired  although he had plenty of money to buy new ones. He never lived luxuriously or waste money on any extravagance although he was a king. I heard about how he went through difficulties travelling to those small villages in remote area and did many things to help the people there to have better lives. I heve heard about how he stay up late at night to get the projects for his people done, how he sent urgent help right away, before anyone, to those who were hit by disasters. All through my life, the King of Thailand always did something for his people, never for himself.

I have also read his words that he tried to teach his people how to be true human being, The more I grow up, the more I could see how precious his speeches and his teachings are, and how he always be a model of what he teaches others. His simple and beautiful words always teach us to be good, to be useful for others, to be kind and generous, to live simply, to be responsible in our duties, to never give up when faced with obstacles, etc. All the things he teach us to do and to be, he could really do and he could really be. He has all those qualities within himself. My beloved King is truly one of the greatest person on earth. And I want to say it out of the bottom of my heart that I am lucky to have been born under his reign, to know what a truly great king is like and  to know what is like to have loyalty for a King. And now that he passed away, I felt an urge in my heart to be loyal to my own country and to do things for the sake of others, just to honor him,,,my beloved king.

Think about it...King Bhumibol lived his life exactly the way Jesus teaches us to live.

Now I understand why on that day....God used the King of Thailand as a symbol in my dream.
Before I became a true believer, when I was just beginning to know God, I didn't understand why Jesus could die on the cross and forgive sins of others. I just simply didn't get the idea, didn't understand how it could possibly happen that way. So I prayed to God...I didn't understand the matter of Jesus dying on the cross to forgive sins...I didn't understand, dear God...can you help me to understand.

And that very night, I had this dream. I saw King Bhumibol sitting near a window. He looked out the window and was so sad to see his people being plagued with so many diseases, so he decided to receive the diseases of his people onto his own body. I saw the King's body covered with terrible wound and scars and in my dream I understood that he want to receive that pain because he loves his people so much.

When I woke up, I understood right away, that this symbolic dream is the answer to my prayer. This is how God explains to me the matter of Jesus dying on the cross to forgive our sins.

And God uses King Bhumibol as the symbol of Jesus in my dream...because he's truly the greatest King.

Rest in Peace...my beloved King. Although I'm so sad that our country has lost you but I'm also glad that you are in Heaven now, after all the labor, after all the pain...

I promise that the little light that I have in this simple lowly heart, I will try to make it shine...for others and for this land.

This One For You...Mother Mary

For a Christian converted to Catholic, it is not easy to have much belief or much faith on Virgin Mary. Nevertheless, I have found my peace on this matter and I've come to love her quite a lot.
I should have written this post a long time ago in honor of her.

I discover that we can't use reasons or information to believe in someone unseen or invisible like God, Jesus, or Mother Mary, it has to come by experience only. Books and stories about Virgin Mary in details doesn't help me to believe at all, but now I love her because she shows me that she loves me and she is there to help. And I slowly feel her presence or existence in my life by the following:

- She answered my petitions. I don't pray to her to grant me things because I  believe that's what God and Jesus do, but I believe that she can send out her special prayer for us, like all the saints, but much much more. I do ask her to pray for me sometimes, particularly on feminine matter and small little things that women care about. I also ask her on relationship.

-When I was attacked by dark spirit, many times I heard Mother Mary songs in my head and felt that she comes to help and once I heard the deepest of me praying the rosary automatically while I was in deep spiritual trouble. Once, the demon got me in the throat and I couldn't breath. I prayed the rosary prayer and the problem at my throat disappeared at that moment.

-I had a dream that a just-pass-away person whom I know come to tell me that "if you need anything, ask Mother Mary. She'll help" And that was when I was about to translate books about her.

-I remember standing in front of her smiling statue and found the peace inside, since when I had no knowledge about her at all, even before I become a Catholic.

I just want to write this post down to honor her, because I used to plunged into a confusion and disbelief because there was a lot of information out there that I used to read about "the cult of Virgin Mary" and how it is a false belief. Those information got in my head a lot and I had a hard time for a period.

Well, to speak the truth, I don't really know how much the details of those Virgin Mary books are true about her. But it doesn't matter. I can learn all about it after I die. I don't know everything now on Earth. What I need to know I already know, Mother Mary is there and she loves me and she helps me.


Thank you...Thank you so much. I love you too, Mother Mary.