Just Matter of Years

It seems that things gathered and pointed up and pressed and lead me toward "that" end.

But it's just simply not now. I have a reason to stand. I have a reason to live.

But I will have my real choice after some of these years have passed

After "A" happens, then "B" can happen.

I will wait until "A" happens, then maybe I will consider "B"...still a choice.

But right now eventhough "B" can happen too, but I choose not to.

Taking "B" alternative right now can bring more long-term troubles.

So...the matter on the face is...

How can I survive the moments when "B" is not yet a choice

when I still have to wait for "B"

I have to endure....no other alternatives

Anything to survive and function.

Yes, I can take "B" now, it is tempting.

But I heard of people who takes "B" alternative before "A" happens

The result wasn't so good, more troubles ahead I guess.

I'll wait...I'll wait...I'll wait.