I lose my faith (but God wasn't mad)

I lose my faith. Period.

No need to do or say anything.

Just die when I have to. Kill when I have to.

At least I'm not the only dark souls in Hell.

Hope you all make it better than me on this planet.

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I expected that God would gravely punish me for being hateful, bitter, and ungrateful after all the help he had given me.

But I found a passage and God in that passage spoke to me kindly like the God that I used to know many, many years ago when I came to believe in Him. 

And when I asked questions, He still answered.

So...I don't know. I'll live..maybe.

I'll keep on believing that Eternal Love does exist.

The Love that continues to love even when we are at our worst self.