I went to a short meditation course this past weekend, but what was more precious to me than my meditation practice (which didn't seem to progress anywhere as usual) was an inspiration I received from the film about the life of Padre Pio. I'd heard about him for a long time but didn't feel anything that relate to me. But after that night, learning about his life, I was so deeply touched that I totally changed a big decision in my life. I cannot write about that decision down here, for it is between me and God. But I can write down other things that I collected into my heart from this film.
- There are truly great souls in the world, those who truly having Christ living in them. These great souls suffer so much for us because they share the pain of Christ crucifixion and they have to face with the Devil himself and all its attacks. Their responsibility is far bigger than most of us. Padre Pio is such a true beauty, true light. Even as a film, the light of his soul could be perceived and I realized how small, how tiny, how childish I am. I felt so ashamed for ever having any grand thoughts about myself or my life. I am truly nothing. And somehow...in that moment of realizing that truth...I feel so free, truly free. It is so right for me to be a small little soul in the hand of the Great God. Any big thoughts, any big dreams, are all illusions and false self. At that moment, when I felt myself growing so small, it was as if I found the right place where I belong.
- I believed there are great souls like this living with us even today. One of them is already in my life and I felt so sorry that I didn't even realize it or didn't trust what my heart told me from the beginning, although I have had his light shining down upon me many times.
- I want to be on of Padre Pio's daughters in spirit, I hope he doesn't mind ^_^
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