Yesterday I was very selfish. I thought that I had my reason for not being there early in the morning to take care of my sick uncle in the hospital when my mother asked me to because the caretaker was already there and another relative will soon be there. I postponed the visit to night time, I put meals, jobs, and other things before doing this kindness. When I arrived there, there was nothing for me to do, the caretaker told me that his worst time of pain were during mornign and day time and now he is deep asleep because of the drug that the doctor injected. She said today his terrible pain returned and he suffered a lot. I felt so guilty and I felt really sorry for what I have done, taking other trivial things in life to be more important than kindness for others. If I had been there earlier, at least I can be an encouragement, at least I can pray and ask God to lessen the pain.
Last night, I told Jesus that I was really, really sorry and I wouldn't be selfish like that again. There is a deep peace when you totally repent and surrender. Something inside will tell you that a new day will come and and you can try again when new opportunity arises.
And I will try again...to be kind. Please help me, dear God, to know what are the higher priorities of life.
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