Under this shadow

Alone...lying down here in the pool of mud
Still hope for a stair...a way up...a helping hand
No...not a sight of that yet

Under this shadow
My eyes cannot see well
Under this shadow
My heart can only beat with sorrow

They say...let your heart be still
I say...please show me how
For something that maybe easy for you
can be the most difficult thing for me

Under this shadow
All I can do is trying to survive
Under this shadow
All I can do is just...stay alive

Alone...lying down here in the abyss
Still hoping, still looking out
For love and kindness
Does anybody have left to share?

 Under this shadow
I cannot digest knowledge
I cannot take in spiritual practices
I am hungry for love
I am thirsty for kindness

But all I have to eat now
just a couple of tranquilizers

Do not hurt me no more
Please...
I am fragile at this moment
I can break into pieces
With just one mean word
With just one cold glance

Under this shadow
Still trying to find rest in God
But since I can't find it yet
I beg all of you
to have mercy...