Sometimes I wonder what is the main cause of it, this mysterious fatique. Suddenly it just occurs and I feel no energy. I have not been working too hard, and I have had enough sleep lately. This fatique often comes with the inability to get up from bed and the lack of desire to work and do what I need to get done. Depression? But how can it be when I have no reason to be depressed? I also notice that in the past few days it comes after prayer, like praying the rosary. Isn't it weired? Praying should be something to refresh you, not sapping your energy. Lately, I also notice that sounds and noises in the surrounding disturb me very easily. At this moment as I am writing, the chewing sound of a person eating dinner is disturbing me very much. Fortunately, I am aware when it happens and try not to get moody.
Anyway, all that I can do is just surrender to the experience and accept it with a smile. When I can find the energy to get up, I get up. When I can't, I ask God to help me. But if my body feels very weak and my eyes feel heavy, I just have to let them do what they want. I just lie there and sleep.
Life consists of good and bad days anyway. If I must go through this again, then I will. Hope that one day I will find the answer, find out what causes this mysterious fatique.
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